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5th-Aug-2009 07:47 am - Echo
simple feelings can
never be translated 'cause
words are too complex

are they less or more?
five, seven, five, and so on
they don't have patterns

so how can I start
to express these emotions
without killing them?

taking a deep breath
I'll give you a part of it,
this life with no end.

a human, no heart
will let its mind take control
but you are my place

where the beats begin,
my bad conscience slips away ,
and all becomes strange

my thoughts once echoed
and lingered on in my mind
you replace the voice

rational thoughts, gone
I look for words, but see none
I don't know these thoughts

a cave, dark and lost
the hollow never retreats,
constant reminders

it remains open,
didn't know it existed,
but I am tempted

should I leave or go?
still, you gave me an echo
so I'll shout back just for you.
22nd-Jul-2009 05:40 pm - fade, fade, fade....
Because of our woes
I am a little more insane than troubled

fade, fade, fade, fade,
friend, let's just let it fade faraway

help me forget it all
all the hurt that caused my fall

I can't forget our past
not even if I hide behind this mask

it aches, aches, aches, aches
my mind just won't ever let me wake

'cause all of my hurting too,
scars me more than it will you

Tremble, tremble, tremble, tremble
tumble, tumble, tumble, tumble

not until I reach the very last step
Oh I fall ever so fairly

and I still can't speak those words of sorry
because my throat still itches of worry
6th-Jul-2009 02:55 pm - clear blue & silver linings...





+ Made in Photoshop CS4
+ PSD included


clear blue skies are waiting for you... )


Some other results, with fixed settings:
Last night I wasn't able to sleep so I grabbed my younger brother's PSP to listen to some of his music (since HE lost my mp3 player anyway) and was still not able to sleep. I lay in bed for I don't know, maybe four hours or so? And then I heard some people outside chatting away (at 1 in the morning, really!?), which only made it harder to sleep. About 30 minutes later, I heard someone playing with some sort of ball because it kept bouncing off the concrete.

So I finally got out of my bed (really annoyed) and peered out the window except I kind of couldn't because I have blinds. So I made sure to open one of the little strips carefully and slightly so I could go unnoticed. I didn't want anyone to think ZI was a stalker or something. And I see my neighbor--who by the way is around my age, except that he's one grade below me--playing SOCCER. He plays even at the time of the night? Well, I don't know what possessed me, but I watched him run around the cul-de-sac like a freaking dork (not in a bad way by the way) and then he kicked the ball towards our driveway.

I stayed very, very still as he used his shirt to wipe his face.

He looked up towards my window.... )
3rd-Jul-2009 05:17 pm - Writer's Block: Dog Day Afternoon

The Dog Days of summer, the hottest days of the year in the Northern Hemisphere, start today. What's your favorite thing to do in hot weather?


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On extremely hot days, I like to ice cream to my little heart's content! ^0^ Brain freezes are the worse though. =X But hey, what's another way to forget how hot it is? Haha! This is probably off topic, but my favorite ice cream has to be cookies and cream:



It brings back a lot of good memories that I can't help but to hold on to.
3rd-Jul-2009 02:40 pm - *twenty2 <3

*my first time posting icons!! :DD

might update with some more when i can get back to my photoshop.


+ 22 f.t island icons (simple color & crop)
+ please let me know if you are using them
+ crediting is very courteous
+ enjoy :)

preview:



forever treasured. )
2nd-Jul-2009 04:39 pm - off to a bad start =(

whoopdee-freakin'-doo. my first journal entry. :D

First off, I'd like to thank and give credits to dodoki for the wonderful, clean layout (found it at createblog). If I understood how to use livejournal, maybe I'd make my own, but anyone who knows me in real life knows how lazy I am. Haha. Hm. I'm still pretty new here and just started yesterday (or at least I think it was yesterday! lol) 

Yeah....my account's still looking pretty bare here. I was going to make some icons and share it with the internet world, but got sidetracked along the way. And then I got back into the jive again. Pretty soon, my mom came upstairs and into my room to bug me again (she nags at me everyday <_<). She was trying to kick me off but I refused >_< Doesn't she understand what inspiration is? It would be totally gone if she kicked me off! And well she got so heated that her tone was rising and woke my dad up. -_- And boy, there we go. I did not want to mess with my dad. I got mad, stopped talking to them, and he got so angry that he decided he was gonna put a password on my computer AGAIN (something my dad does when he thinks the children are acting up).

And so that's why I can't make any icons or graphics or anything for the matter. I mean, even if I broke into my computer and figure out the password, I've lost all inspiration now anyhow. Which really blows.

So um, yes. Maybe I'll post some of the icons I've already made. Maybe I'll wait until I get back to my Photoshopping again.


Cough.

Is this how people usually start their journal entries here? lol. I'm sorry with all my useless angry rant. I shall provide you some info on me. :)




 
Who the hell is this damn noob?

Where the username "schizos-parade" originated: I actually intended it to be read: Schizo's Parade, but you know how usernames are. You can't have spaces or apostrophes or any of that fun shiz. Schizo's Parade is just something I made up a few months back. Schizophrenics have illusions, right? Well, the parade the schizo is having is just a fragment of the schizo's illusions and mind. It's like a metaphor.

To break it down, it's this simple: "imagination of a schizophrenic" 

...I hope that wasn't too confusing. O.o

Name:
Anna
 
You may see other people calling me: Rina (long story. you'd have to meet me on soompi forums to understand)

Is more active on:
soompi forums (kpop for the masses~~)

Yet she is more interested with: JPop/JRock. ROFL. (this is also a part of the story of why I get called "Rina.")

Other interests: Um, well most of it's already and my bio and everything, but here goes. Music, like with all other teenagers, is like an international language to me. I love it. It's a part of my life and helps calm my mind whenever I may need it. I listen to variety of music like alternative or indie rock (none of that hardcore stuff, sorry), R&B, JPop/JRock, and KPop. Sometimes I like to listen to Hip hop too, but only if there is actually a deeper meaning in the lyrics. I don't like those stereotypical "I'm-in-love-with-a-stripper" songs (no offense to Mr. T Pain). So this subjects leads to my next subtopic:

Favorite Artists/Bands: Boys Like Girls (definitely), Seriously (the band--they're an Asian group from Cali), Annasay, A Fine Frenzy, Ne-Yo, Mario Barrett, Lupe Fiasco, KAT-TUN (a huge Kame fan), L'arc~en~ciel, Mika Nakashima, Yuna Ito, Younha, Loveholic, F.T Island, Golf-Mike, &more

Age: =X I'm not telling you my real age! That's dangreous! All I'll say is that I'm a teen about to be a junior when school starts again.

Other Hobbies: From my previous rant above, you can probably already tell I'm a Photoshop addict. haha ^^;; But there's something else I'm more into. I love to write. It means a lot to me. I've written short stories, one-shots, and (currently) a full legnth story. I can and have found a lot about myself through writing. I'm striving to get better and hope to publish at least one thing when I am older. The next thing you read will sound cliche`, but writing is my soul. I'm definitely not going to get tired of it.

Ethnicity: just if you're curious, I'm Asian. lol. I'm not sure why that would matter, but whatever~


Get to know me. I've decided I'll stop here. lol.


And ummm, if you've reached the end of this, I am seriously clapping for you. I know that I'm a boring person and that everyone has a life, but it's great to know that someone was motivated enough to actually read all of these rantings of a super noob. lol. Leave a nifty comment behind or something. I'd love to make more new friends. :)



Shoutouts:
MICHA~!! You probably don't know yet, but this is RINA! BE SURE TO ADD ME BACK! ;DDD
;;& TAOOOOOO, thanks for adding me too! LOL!

and to others:
I am fabrications. /Rina<3 from soompi. If I talk to you there, be sure to add me too. :)
 

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